CW: Parasites, Gross
Lovely work! I too wish to eat myself. Sometimes I find myself biting my cuticles and chewing down until near to drawing blood, exposed-sensitive skin raking across every surface in new-nerved glory of painful-delicate detailed touch. Your work is a delectable assortment of disgust before and during an exquisite meal — I adore this, truly, for it draws a horror and revulsion not seen in many places save for eating writhing maggots under slabs of sloppy wastewater pipe wall scrapings instead of beef over rice; devouring a zombie's rotted arm after it has been shot through with cannonballs slathered in the latrine pit's rising-water settled waters we all call sediment because that is a more polite term than the entire encampment's food made gone; a snail, perhaps, gone over bananas burrowed inside of by parasitic wasps mistaking yellow long fruit for figs and making do anyways. Crunching down (crunching? why not softly cutting in (like butter)? you'll see) into a fresh yellow spotless banana like a canary without a trace of green and crying in horror when female eggs pop like glistening black sturgeon roe between your molars, some getting stuck in your gums: fear them hatching there later, eating their way out. Will they go through the fleshy gum wall? Burrow deeper into the fatty yellow nerve fibers, the auxiliary cabling in your jaw with the result of you writhing in bed, sweating and whimpering, your own feces and urine pooling on the bedsheets because you have lost everything but your consciousness and some hope of future dignity when all this is over? Or will it give you a simple root canal, a cavity from the inside? Attend to it at the dentist, have a single tear fall fall when the winged fig wasp flies out and hits her head, falls over and dies like a moth to the sun on the too-bright dentist's surgery light.
Do fig wasps even have the capacity to burrow through enamel? (They must, because figs are hard.)
Can a fig wasp even hatch inside a person's mouth?
What a beautiful work. I adored it so. Keep on, Zip. Keep on and watch out for crunchiness when eating bananas. You mixed pleasure, pain, beauty, and horror so elegantly in this work, and then threw in cannibalism and despair so well here. Well done, Zip. Well done.
- A Freshly Banana-Avoidant Styg