My fever soars and sweat pollutes my brow;
The illness proves that I am but a man.
The strength which youth bestowed is gone, and now
I weep as only dying sinners can.
For I am not like you, who loved your Christ;
Instead I made my lust a golden calf.
I worshipped you and canonized our tryst;
I slew my only son on your behalf.
But you, devout and pure and free of sin,
Are surely bound for golden-cobbled streets.
So look and see your lover’s final grin,
For I will not be there with you, my sweet.
When you resign to God’s eternal grace
I hope that you forget my smiling face.