i feel i am happy with you
by "Ecronak",
to "S".
we are similar in so many ways
cut from the same cloth
red upon ermine red
blush matching blush
sea meeting sea.
and
i feel i am happy with you
but
why does your shadow retreat
when mine chooses to chase
why do i so endeavor to look into your eyes
when you endeavor to look away
why do my waves lash upon the beach
attempting to reach you
yet you are oceans away
still, calm, placid as the arctic sea
you—
my other half.
yet i feel as if i do not know you
just as much as i understand you.
you—
who reached out in a time so short ago
and i took your hand and felt its warmth
and yet now why am I the one
dangling over the edge to touch you?
you—
who i want to be my greatest confidante.
my most ardent listener.
just as i am, and will eternally be yours.
i am yours.
why can't you be mine?
why is it, when i endeavor to be as fire
you content yourself to be as ice?
why is it, when i look into your eyes
i see care, and affection, and life
yet find them not
when you touch me not in the day and night?
i miss you.
yet i cannot say it.
for my fire may retreat your ice
and not melt it as i intend.
so i bend.
and wait.
heart breaking
soul wrenching
body
waiting.
i feel i am happy with you—
but.